I go off on tangents with incredible frequency. Once a thought is in my head, however briefly or lengthily, and it’s cut off before I finish. Stopped short. The fact is that I’m surprised I’ve managed to collect this many sentences in one sitting… well, I’m not sitting. I’m writing this out long-hand, on my bed, wearing my Stewie Griffin pajamas with a brain lubricated by Gin & Tonic (note to self: add limes and tonic to shopping list. Oh, I better do that now).
Okay, now that I’m back. Dear Readers, this is how I operate. My mind is in a race for the finish line yet distracted and brought to pause, or at least made to change directions as soon as something shiny or glittery appears. Sequestered as I am in my bedroom, the low lighting, the muffled sound of the TV down the hall, the chirping of crickets and the call of the whippoorwill all serve as distractions to keep me from focusing on completing a random thought. I’m left with hundreds of incomplete ones.
Mish-mashes of shopping lists and new recipes. TV schedules for favorite shows parry with To-Do Lists and work schedules. I look out my window and see ragweed growing in the raised planting beds and think about how I need to get outside and pull all those unwanted plants and then I see the pair of shoes and some shirts I’ve set aside to donate…but then I grab a basket of dirty laundry to wash, the weeds and donation clothing out of mind. Temporarily. Again… until I look at them once more.
It’s not just incomplete thoughts, but projects as well. A stack of material is waiting to be ironed and turned into curtains, a quilt and a dress. Yet, the dress needs to wait for this whole gluten-free/dairy-free diet to settle out (why make the dress only to have to alter it in a couple or few months). The curtains, well… I can get to those – really. As for the quilt? It’s ongoing. Then I see a book that needs to be put away. The material is once more forgotten for another day.
I know I’m not the only person who finds themselves distracted and torn at nearly every turn. Oh if I could focus intently, unwaveringly on a project and just sit and bring it to completion, just think of how much I could….. I think I want a cookie….