Stress is a bitch. A cold, hard bitch – which is also a great song, but I digress.
Some years back I had a moment of realization that I had gotten fat. I stepped out of the shower, dried off, caught a look at myself in the mirror and shouted down the hall to Mr. Muse, “Holy Shit! When did I get fat!?”
It’s okay; you can laugh – I do. But, the fact was that I was fat, my joints hurt, I was eating crap, drinking too many adult beverages, and ice cream was on the menu every night. Hey, it happens to a lot of people.
But, that moment of epiphany about my unhealthy state caused me to get my ass in gear and lose weight, change my eating habits, and do a better job taking care of my body.
I had lost 70 pounds and I kept it off for many years. I was proud of my ability to maintain all I’d achieved.
Of course, Life happens, and the last few years found my stress levels rising. The quote about knowing thyself comes to mind; and I know that I’m a stress eater and drinker.
So, I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about things I do that are habitual. I’d kept up working out a few times a week, but the eating habits had gone back to their old ways. Potato chips and ice cream. Adult beverages – far too many. All things chocolate. Gaining weight is kind of sneaky. You see it’s happening but you still think everything is fine and then one day you put on your tailored pants and think, “Damn, I have to suck in to button these!”
The lack of discipline all coincided with my most recent physical exam where the number on the scale stared back at me, and I knew Life had not been kind, and it was time to, once again, get my ass in gear. I’m in my 40’s now, and the body just doesn’t bounce back like it would in the teens and 20’s.
Mr. Muse and I noticed that less-than-healthy choices were making more frequent appearances in the shopping cart and we were both in need of revisiting those old, new habits. We began to allow our home bar to dwindle. I continued mindfulness meditation via the Headspace app (seriously, it has worked wonders on my stress and anxiety). We started our weekend hikes again and stopped buying ice cream.
I also started tracking food and fitness. It was the key to losing all the weight I’d lost before, and it will be the key again.
Have you found yourself in a situation where good habits you’d formed were pushed aside for bad ones?